Behold, I am doing a new thing . . . Isaiah 43:19

There have been three moments in my life where the starting over has been very marked . . .

The first was in 2015 when my then-husband and I miscarried our 6-week-old angel. The pregnancy had been a surprise because we’d been told conceiving would be hard—though not impossible—for us. After conceiving, the morning sickness was also hard, but I committed to the disciplines God led me to despite how I felt. While the life inside me was ultimately lost, I felt mine was just beginning. So I pledged to God to do just that: start over, keep Him first in all things, and get back to living. You can read about my experience in this blog post from January 2016.

My second moment came not too long after the aforementioned pledging. In August 2018, I was working for a local nonprofit and began to sense the what next point in my career in the nonprofit sector. The Lord led me to found my own work line, as I called it then, where I’d service nonprofits as a freelancer and have my own base of clients. Fast forward a few years, and after a few revisions to the original founding, MELCHEE formed into a thriving and meaningful pathing in Christian media and nonprofit support. The journey to now hasn’t been easy, but it’s been so worth it.

My latest “moment” has involved more of just my own personal evolving, coming more into myself as a 50+ woman, and learning daily, it seems, what matters and what doesn’t. Life has been “life-ing,” as the saying goes, and it hasn’t all felt good. I feel like I’ve started over more times in this season than in any other so far. But is that a bad thing?

I think that with each new day, we’re given a chance to start again, to leave yesterday behind, and focus on the now. We can awaken to a version of ourselves appointed with new mercies and grace, favor, clothed and in our right mind, with the full armor of God bestowed. We can choose to lean into divine reinvention and do so with each dawn, at each hour, minute, or second of the day, after each hurt, victory, loss, or at every place of joy. Start over, realign, and get back on the potter’s wheel as many times as needed, and allow God to reveal Himself to you in ways above all that you could ask or think.

He’s just that kind of God.